I notice that I don’t tend to get the attention that lustful attention when it comes to guys. I notice that if someone were to see me, my first impression wouldn’t be as pleasing as a girl with big eyes, big lips and nice long hair. I ask myself though if I really want this type of physical, ”first-impression” type of attention. All I need is the one person who will like what they see in me, and how I’m not just any girl.
Truth is, everyone is beautiful and it just takes the right person to see it.
I guess if I wanted to I’d try harder but it comes back to the fact that I don’t care how others look at me; I guess as long as I’m comfortable with myself my self consciousness will feed off that comfort making me more confident? This is why I choose not to wear make-up because I feel that comfort is more important than beauty most of the time. I guess I have the moments where I yearn for that attention just like any other person. I guess sometimes I’d be nice to have a reminder. Every guy and girl deserves someone to remind them how beautiful they are as a person.
I don’t know if anyone understands, I’m not sure if the way I put it is relatable. This is just to help me better understand myself, and why I feel the way I do at times. Just a process I go through when trying to interpret certain things.
